Patient’s perspective: How a school project helped me to face my trauma?
Hope you are doing fine!
Sharing my first traumatic experience
I was 12 years old when I first had a panic attack and after that, I had to miss out on many classes. Most of the time, I noticed symptoms like:
- Feeling sick to my stomach
- Clamming of my feet and palms
The butterflies which I used to feel were too intense and sometimes I felt like I was on the verge of throwing up. But, I didn’t know that it was the start of something traumatic. If that time, I would have understood the situation better, maybe I would have consulted the best psychiatrist in Ludhiana. It is important that we take care of our mental health and do not neglect the situation at any cost.
Gone through an abusive childhood
The problem was linked to my past as my childhood was physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive. Initially, I did not want to share my struggle with anyone and wanted to keep it to myself.
I believed that people of my age did not face anxiety. I always made excuses to myself and did not want to acknowledge the fact that even a child can experience fear and pain. When I consulted the psychiatrist I came to understand different things and what I need to do.
Therapy session for my mental health
During my therapy session, I was told to write about the situation be it of pain, abuse, or anything that too from the 3rd person perspective. Initially, when I was told about the idea, I did not want to try it. But, once I understood and gave it a try, it changed my life for the better. Once we have written it, we need to read it to others present in the session.
Project about sharing the thoughts
It was difficult because I struggled with reading and writing and I thought these are not necessary. But, once I started doing the assignment I had the best time. I would wait for the session to write something new. Writing was one thing that did not give me interest but it was something that changed my life for the better.
The outcome of the project
Well! It is all about finding the voice, right words, and not feeling ashamed about anything. Whether it is family or friends, there is no need to worry about anything. Just make sure that you speak the truth and put in all of your energy. While writing, I was able to get help through counseling and therapy which helped with my trauma and healing. We all have bad and good days, but hope and positivity are what keeps us alive and helps us to get one step closer to our dreams.